My Healing Notes

I just figured out why Corydalis wasn't being drawn at all a few days ago. We're  heading towards the full moon when everything in nature grows to fruition. Now as we near the full moon (past first quarter), it's finally begun to be drawn. A few more days and maybe I'll be able to see the healing accelerate.

The face of an animal with distemper is characteristically scabby and the eyes (esp kittens) glued shut. Most of us are clueless and keep wiping it off just to see it spread. The guides picked a remedy that is for syphilitic origins. The surface scabs go down to the bone. They're scrofulous scabs on the face & gut. The homeopathic remedy for that is CORYDALIS formosa. Eclectics gave it in material doses but I've got 6 & 30x at home. Absinth 6 seems to be drawn over it.

I was expecting the movement of Rahu and Ketu away from the sun (except for the partial solar eclipse last new moon) and moon would bring down this energy that sounds like a vibrating hum or whine. But it's only gotten worse and more continuous. Louder. I can't alter it much with my meditation and breathing anymore. Animals are staggering about. Chiri, Squeaky are worst affected in the cats. Another of Raji's kittens is puking but she's been to struggling to breathe for a while. I can't  find her from last night. The sweet yipping female opposite the art museum is barely able to move. Her 5 puppies are fortunately weaned but no one's feeding them but me. The chill hasn't let up either. All we can do is feed them all and wait. What if this is actually related to the polar vortex instead? That went from 2 petals to 4 recently, just before Shiva rathri. It's now forming a discus.

It's hard to put these thoughts down. I didn't think it would be so difficult. Working with guides is very difficult because everything gets in the way. Your thoughts, emotions, doubts, distractions, whatever you read or hear. Guides are soft and faint, like kinesthesiology. Your whole mind & body should listen without blocks or judgements. I'm so unfit for the task, constantly seeking stimulation. Sad how untrained our minds are - I didn't realise I was this  dissolute and corrupt until I couldn't do more than a few minutes of the meditation.

One kitten almost died. That and the others still live, thanks to the guides. I still don't always get what they want, I still get mad when they let an animal die saying that it's too late to start healing, but I see what they're doing is right. For this kitten, the body wasting was as bad as any I've every seen. She had asthma and would whoop with every breath. Her mother, Raji, was out of her mind with terror (having lost her entire set the last time), calling me to her kittens every hour of the day and night. I was scared too. I'd never seen a kitten so bad. Unable to suckle, eyes glued shut, noise blocked, clear urine (no kidney activity), lungs hardened, swollen spleen, constipated and rickets. She would sit day after day wilting on a hot water bottle in the cupboard. On 21st Jan I got the first clear picture of salting milk and dabbing the eyes with it. I tried it on me first and I was surprised it was painless and very soothing. The eyes began to heal slow...

Ketu is on the sun. Rahu eclipsed the moon last week. Ketu took a life today, and I had a mild  accident on Saturday. Seems to have a drying influence - my lips are chapping & I've got a heel crack. Burning red toes. Maybe this happens every 3 years and I don't notice? Rahu and Ketu have an 18 month cycle is what I've read.