Hard to find the words to share

It's hard to put these thoughts down. I didn't think it would be so difficult.

Working with guides is very difficult because everything gets in the way. Your thoughts, emotions, doubts, distractions, whatever you read or hear.

Guides are soft and faint, like kinesthesiology. Your whole mind & body should listen without blocks or judgements.

I'm so unfit for the task, constantly seeking stimulation. Sad how untrained our minds are - I didn't realise I was this  dissolute and corrupt until I couldn't do more than a few minutes of the meditation.

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